In an attempt to keep this blog real, let me say it has been a really difficult week for us...
We got a call last week that we are NOT able to adopt the two boys that were referred to us. As the process moved through the standard steps, something was discovered that prevents these kids from being eligible for adoption.
It is such a loss. It's amazing how connected to them we had become over the months of thinking about them and praying for them. We had become attached to the idea of these boys and been planning for them to be a part of our family in the short term details and our long term dreams.
But while we are feeling disappointed, our real sadness is for the boys. Our understanding is that while they are no longer legally eligible for adoption, their circumstance is not changing. That is heart breaking! We are grieving their loss... the loss of their chance for a better future, the loss of their ability to be in a committed family, and so much more.
I don't want to sound hopeless for them, because the Lord is my hope and He can do absolutely anything and everything for these boys. But in the present, I'm struggling to see that. I fear for them. I mourn for them. I am believing that our short involvement in their lives leads to good... Maybe it brought them to the attention of someone in-country who can be a light and care for them. And I am turning them fully over to God, who is their true Father.
